Journal Entry: Wed Nov 26, 2014, 9:25 AM
Um, so long time no speak, see, communicate.
It's been a really long time and things have happened,
as they always do.
So, my birthday was on Saturday and I've read all of your birthday messages,
they made me so happy and I have no words to express the joy they gave me.
I'd also like to say thank you to svenspade09 for giving me a premium membership
(you're so awesome thank you so much!).
So, um I finally finished my finals and did well in all of my subjects aside from bio
since someone I used to be friends with contacted me at 12 pm and played the
victim and tried to paint me to be a villain, but I digress.
So friendships have been fractured, literally a few days before my birthday.
Uh, my newspaper apprenticeship has been going well, on Wednesday last week I went
to a protest to abolish tuition fees in the Uk to get material for this months article.
I got a camera from my birthday, a canon eos 1200D. The image quality is impeccable,
and I've just about figured it out.
It was a good day, on my birthday that is.
So, the reason for my absence and inability to write something that isn't complete shit is because
well, for starters November is never a good month for me, it's full of sadness and it's when my depression
normally spikes. Um so my mother told me to perhaps talk to my college student counselor, so I spoke to a
teacher and now I'm on the waiting list.
Um, and the woman who I'm supposed to talk to until I can actually talk to a proper therapist thinks I might
have an eating disorder...so...yeah.
One of the friends I made from college is a recovering bulimic and she's been showing concern for my
eating habits...it's out of kindness and concern but it kinda freaks me out when she threatens to kill herself if
I don't eat like normal people.
My mother also commented on my weight, since I'd ordered a black dress a few weeks ago, she said I looked sick,
like a bag of bones...we had heated arguments about the whole food thing...she's stopped mentioning it, for now.
which I'm grateful for. I hope it lasts.
I think I'm fine. I'm a little underweight but it's not too bad, and I eat enough in my opinion. I'm not that thin,
the woman who I'm speaking to said I have "meat on my legs", when I brought this up to my friend
she pointed out the woman's weight. I digress.
so I've been trying to clear my head, trying to keep on top of work, trying and trying and trying.
I'm going to try and write so I can actually post something here.
I'm sorry for not responding to you guys.
I'm sorry for constantly apologizing.
I hope you're all okay, have a great week.
Listening to: island fox-come with me
Reading: the electric kool aid acid test