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lately i've come to feel
like a leap of days that didn't happen
nor had the right to exist,
in the first place.
i can’t help the diffraction of my
veins straining against
the sticky membrane of my skin;
as though they are trying
to reach the sky,
they splinter and groan
under the graceless movements
of my limbs.
i search for cracks beneath
the surface,
prodding and poking
trying to dissect myself with the
precision of shaky hands numbed
by alcohol and one too many painkillers;
i am the surgeon of my own disaster
attempting to reassemble
those caved in xylems.
i tried desperately to
resurrect those broken stems
i gave them a transfusion with my
own fluids
and offered up my own
trachea to try and let them breathe;
but i suppose some things,
much like people,
refuse to be
salvaged,
perhaps the dead should
remain comatose
The title is from somewhere, I've read it somewhere but I don't know where and i felt it fit.
i'm sorry if this is bad the only words i feel i can offer as of late
are "drowing" and "trapped" and "please believe me when i say im trying" and i feel
like i'm relapsing all over again but i'm really trying
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masiva Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace I believe is where the quote is from. :) Great poem.
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014  Student General Artist
I see, thank you :D
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annabellem Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2014  Student Writer
this is beautiful, and i think the title fits nicely as well. i don't think this is bad at all although i'm not familiar with any of your other pieces. i would kill to write something like this. <3
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you very much :glomp:
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annabellem Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student Writer
You're welcome! <3
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014
1) long time no see!!!
2)great writing, but remember live life to the fullest let the dead sleep and puppets play on their strings yet you'll always be strong because your a fighter no matter what you say and that I'm always hear if you need me (even if you don't reply JK)
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014  Student General Artist
1) I agree!
2) and thank you so much for the encouragement, school has been so hectic what with exams fast approaching i havent had a chance to catch up with you at all, how are you?
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
Been very busy my self but all in all doing really good. You doing ok/ better?
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Student General Artist
I've been okay, just cramming nothing exciting unfortunately how is the kitty cat? 
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
Tried tagging you in a picture not sure it worked so here, svenspade09.deviantart.com/art…
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Student General Artist
soooo cute and fluffy :iconawwwplz:
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014
And big measures all but three feet from nose to tail
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
What do you mean exams are sssssooooooooo fun.
Cats doing good fat, lazy, and loving as ever. Nothin good been happening besides school?
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014  Student General Artist
you're right what was i thinking, exams are the light of my life, the highlight of my year :P
not really, i'm actually on spring break right now so i've just been cramming since i have exams next month so yup, i've started looking at university applications but that's about it.

i clearly lead such an exciting life huh?
what about you, anything interesting happen on the other side of the pond?
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014
of course you your so exciting I'm so jealous wish I was you! :D

No not much going on here work, play, sleep, all the fun stuff..... Well there is one thing I'll be going on a cruise in june yea. 
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lightbleueyes Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Student General Artist
Love the title! xD
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grew-up-a-screw-up Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014  Student General Artist
thank you so do i ^^
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